All Kinds of Stuff That I Don't Have The Energy To Title Right Now

Thought I'd let you guys know how the Mindfullness in March is going, since we're about halfway through this month (crazy, I know!!!) and halfway through the challenge. Basically, I've been having trouble completing the harder days. It's still very difficult for me to stay mindful on the most basic level. But it's been great practice and very good for me to start each day with being mindful and to remind myself to be mindful when challenges come up.


Last night was a great example. I went to a fundraiser ball with my parents, sister, and two sets of aunts and uncles. It was actually a really cool event. You go and have dinner and they have actors around the room and throughout the evening, a murder mystery plays itself out. Each of the guests can get up and interrogate other people and each guest is given different clues, so you know your clue and can bribe/interrogate other people to put together the puzzle. We did all this in teams of 10 (there were maybe 100 people). Then your team came together with what they had figured out and you had to submit and accusation of one of the guests as well as list their motive and opportunity.

Well, I was having very high anxiety because I haven't been able to work out as much as I'd like because of my knee. Also, I had this last night and more successive dinners and events planned for the next week! Lots of people, and lots of fun!

But I was still able to put all that aside and stay mindful. It helped that I could walk around the room and do things to work on solving the murder instead of sit at the table and focus on just the food and think about how everyone was sitting watching me not eat!

I was also able to be mindful when picking out my outfit! Normally I'm a jeans/sweats/tshirt/barefoot girl ALL THE TIME! it's baggy and hides my figure and is comfortable, and I'm not the "girliest" girl out there (I hate shopping, jewelry, etc... Speaking of shopping, note to add on at the end). But I was able to let myself wear a black skater skirt, red cammy, and white see through collared shirt (partly unbuttoned) with a side pony and a little makeup and a pair of flip flops and I didn't feel too self conscious! I focused on being present in the moment and having fun at the event.


Ok, now the note I mentioned about shopping. For my birthday, my parents got me a shopping spree with my mom to help pay for some "recovery clothes" since I've been needing to go up a size. VERY helpful and very grateful because, as a poor college kid, I am not the most affluent. Maybe once we go shopping I'll post some pictures of my "recovery clothes" to let you guys see them, and to help me get used to people seeing me in slightly larger sizes.

Stay strong people! Keep fighting and have a great week ahead. Spring starts soon! (Well spring was yesterday. And tomorrow. Today it snowed. Go home weather, you're drunk!)