An Ugly Heart

Why won't you leave me alone? Why won't you let me be? My biggest competitor, my trigger. So thin. So pretty. Existing solely in my mind. Or are you?

So much anger. So much hatred. Targeted towards you. Or is it me? Sent in your direction. Or is it my own? haunting my dreams and thoughts.

Please, I beg, end the torment. Never exist, or at least never cross my path. Be different, not the evil bitch you are.

People like you disgust me.

And yet, for some reason, I would give anything to look like you. Are you thinner? I don't know. Is your hair long and thick? Pretty.

I don't want to be like you. You are selfish and angry and manipulative and controlling. You have an ugly heart. You hurt those around you. It's all about you. You virago.

I don't understand. Conflicting emotions. Please be happy. Be kind, be fun, be sunny.

But no, skinny and pretty as you may be, you have an ugly heart.