"It's Hard to Binge On Healthy Food" (Maybe Trigger Warning? If So Skip to the Last Paragraph)

I spoke these words one evening this summer when I was struggling with the infamous "midnight munchies". My mom said it was one of the most correct and level headed things she'd heard me say in years (with regards to food).

Well mom, I just proved us both wrong. Bad day yesterday. Feeling very worried for my friend. Lots of stress and tension. I won't go into all of the details, but it was a very hard night. I had strong urges to binge and purge. I lasted 8 hours.

Almonds, raspberries, blueberries, milk, special K, and broccoli. Ate way too much. Didn't work out. Purged though. I'm going home tomorrow. I need to see my best girlfriend.

Feel so fat and worthless.

Ending on a positive note, I heard a cool idea about a paper chain. Every day you go without a disordered activity, add a link to your paper chain with pretty colored paper. When you slip up, add a white link, and then keep going. Because it's not perfection. It's a process. When you want to engage in a disordered activity, look at the chain and see how far you've come. Awesome idea!