Not shitting you here. I find myself to be a very annoying and pathetic person. I invalidate myself all the time. For example, I don't see the point in why I do everything I do. I mean, it's not like I was one of those people who was raped at age 2 or who saw a bunch of people get murdered or whose daddy's left them without a trace or who lived on the street for three years. I grew up in a good christian home with a loving family and a daddy who banked $120,000 a year.
I have no excuses.
Yes, I got sick. Yes, I've had my share of guy problems and abusive situations. But I don't feel that's enough to justify my ED, anxiety, BPD, and depression.
I also find it annoying how self centered I am. I mean, I write a blog and post it on the internet for god's sake. I make posts on Facebook and hope that people press the little "like" button.
Confession time: I like taking selfies.
I know, pathetic.
I know I should cut myself some slack sometimes and forgive myself. Give myself some grace. But if I'm not hard on myself, who's going to be? I can't be treated with kid gloves here if any progress is going to be made.
I get annoyed at how often I get annoyed. Why should I care about my boyfriend's ex? Why should I care about how much the girl who sits in front of me in class weighs? Or how fast the girl on the cardio machine next to me is going?
I'm so shallow. Time to slap myself around a bit and give it to myself straight.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_NyT8eRres
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