Deep Breaths

I finally did it this weekend. I went clothes shopping. *insert ominous music here*

I went clothes shopping to combat the fact that I'm going up in sizes as I gain weight and a lot of my clothes are beginning to feel rather tight *insert scream from Jaws here*

And the surprising part? It actually wasn't too bad. I went with my sister for about 2 hours Saturday afternoon, and it was actually almost a little fun. We walked around the mall and talked and played dress up (she loves playing dress up with me and since I hate shopping, she jumped at the chance).

I ended up getting a pair of jeans shorts (since almost NONE of my jeans shorts fit!) and a dress that my sister says is super universal and THE DRESS that was absolutely made for me. Normally, I'm totally not a dress person, but I have to admit that this dress does look nice on me.

And anyway, I'm trying to break out of my habit of jeans and basketball shorts. Trying to become a little more "styled". Looking at getting a couple of rompers for this summer and maybe another dress that I saw at JCP that was SUPER ADORABLE and relaxed.

Now I know what you're thinking. "How did you deal with the sizing?" To be honest, this is a therapy assignment that I've been putting off for about 3 weeks now because I just didn't want to deal with addressing the fact that I am physically bigger, in addition to the fact that the number on the scale has gone up.

Well I've gone up about 2 sizes. Deep breaths. Deeeeeep breaths. Trying to be ok with this. Definitely binged last night.

Speaking of last night. Side note Endo update. Went in to the emergency clinic, and the decision has been made that they're going to take me off the experimental medication. Now we're going to wait and "see what happens".

More deep breaths.