Dear God: Remix

Dear God, its me again down here,
All curled up and filled with fear.
I hurt, almost enough to draw a tear,
What can I do? I'm feeling so angry at you;
Disheartened, defeated, discouraged by it all.
Pissed off at the world, and at you most of all.

Now I'm asking, why won't you speak to me?
To explain all your actions. Why have you abandoned me?
Why have you left me with this broken heart?
Because I've hit a wall, and I don't think I can ascend.

You've dealt me a less than perfect hand,
I always trusted you had a plan.
Now I'm doubting! I don't know if I can
Go on like this. Oh, something has gone amiss.
I'm disheartened, defeated, discouraged by it all.
Now I'm crumbling, it's crushing. I can't hold on for long.

I surrender. On this I'm giving up.
Leave me here to bleed. Go away and let me be.
I'm taking matters into my hands.
Because I've hit a wall, and I know that I'm caving in.