Shine

I've gotten to the point where every time I cough or sneeze, I have stabbing pains, mostly on my ovaries and the right side of my intestines. It varies from mild to intense, though it is never debilitating. But, I'm trying to keep my head up and moving forward. Smile everybody =)

I actually left the Facebook ENDometriosis support group that I was a part of. It was a very negative environment and there was a lot of "one-upping" as far as symptoms go. So now we're battling to see who can be the sickest? 

We throw tantrums like parties. 

We're not happy til everyone knows we're sick. 

And that's just how we like it, 

We've hurt bad enough, right? We've earned it!

Don't tell the others, but it's all getting old,

I mean, how many more times must our stories be told?

And being lonely's only fun in a group,

It sort of loses it's charm when it's true.

I meant it when I said "I wanna get well, I wanna get well"

All the rest of you are so content to stay where you are, but it hurts like hell.

And I'm sure it's fun at first. Test your pulse and check your vitals.

So now you know all my secrets.

I want out. I know I don't need this.

Can you find me friends that don't rank me on what I've been through?

The more battle scars, the more attention it gets you.

Come on, guys! Lets be positive and support each other! We all treat illness like a competition. See how many people you can get to feel sorry for you. Play the victim! What if we put all that energy into actually making progress and getting better? You think being sick is fun?

The pain inside is intense. And it's lasting. All you can do is throw your head back, look up at the stars and smile and say to yourself "at least tomorrow has the potential to be better. At least days like today make me appreciate the days where I am pain free all the more."

And then when the sun comes up, we are blessed with another opportunity to shine.